Day Five.

well it seems like my positive attitude is long gone out the window. i just want to stay away from talking to ppl on the fone or txtin but i feel bad cos i know theyre just worried. what upsets me? that all the people who call and personally msg me are ppl i dont talk to much. Not once has a friend came over my house, i havent got a get well card, i havent recieved a call from my "bestfriend" and now my bf isnt calling or txting me asking how im doing. i find myself calling him....and he calls me selfish. idk i guess i really do believe theres going to be issues...hes not going to want to come spend the weekend with me meaning hes going to go out w his friends...thats fine but damn wat about me? i wud spend my weekends home w him,,, ugh, idk me bein on my period is brining me dwn more i guess....cos he was there for me alot and whenever he is here w me he helps me more then anyone else.

ANYWAYS i went to the docs today, , ,
they peeled off all the burnt skin. . .the process didnt hurt so bad only when she came upon some stubborn skin that just did not want to come off so she left it, she bursted some off the blisters that were ready,,,yucky yellow fluid POURED out. I wanted to cry cos after my skin just looked like a piece of meat at the grocery store!  and growing up i was taught NOT to peel off ur scabs. but these arent scabs i have to remind myself; its BURNT SKIN. after sitting there watching [i have to be used to it if im going to be working in that field] the air started burning it...i regretted not listening to my mom and taking painkillers.
my left foot got worse to me...well the pain did. yesterday it was hurting so today i found out why. it was swollen and red and so fat it looked like an elephants foot! they said the redder the flesh the better that means the skin is being formed.

now im at home...just took a small nap..but it still burns so i took vicodin and ima be goin to bed!